Happy yet upset

KC just got his reply from uni saying that he got into the honours programme. I'm really happy for him, but I'm still hanging by the thread. I don't even know if my application for my double degree has been approved, and the worst thing is that the uni is already closed for the christmas holidays and they will only re-open in January.

If I can't do accounting means I have to wait for 6 months and enrol for semester 2 instead. That means 6 more months without KC. I just feel really upset now.

I'm gonna go cry now.

Hopefully the next time I login it will be with good news.

Dead Tired

My maid has gone back home to Indo for a break, and I have to be the replacement maid for the next two and a half weeks.

TOTALLY SUCKS!

I really don't mind doing the chores and cooking for so many people even though its tiring. But I just wish that I could get some appreciation for what I am doing. At least my dad, bro and aunt appreciate what I do.

MY MUM TOTALLY DOES NOT!

She has to complain about everything single thing. Why I didn't cook 2 vegetables instead of one. The "tao suan" was overcooked.

For crying out loud, I'm already so tired doing the laundry, and having to stand on my already ACHING legs to prepare food is not a very enjoyable thing to do. And all she can so is scold and complain. She left me no choice but to just shout back at her.

I was suppose to be happy, cos' my new ovens came and I can start baking again. But NO! I'm upset and tired, and it doesn't help that KC is not around. I really miss him. At least he doesn't complain about what I cook. In fact, he will still praise my cooking even though I know it wasn't nice.

OK. Enough upsetting stuff. Let me talk about my ovens.
Dad bought me new ovens for Christmas. Both from Miele, a steam oven and a conventional oven. These new ovens are really quite cool. They have computers and sensors in them, so those who don't know how to cook can use it with no difficulty. They look good as well with all the modern finishes.

Think I'll make dad a banana cake soon. He's been thinking about it for a real long time.

Lonely in SG

I've been back in SG for almost 2 weeks and I really miss KC alot.

It has come to a point where I can't help but IMAGINE of stupid things and having bad dreams of arguments and breakups. I really can't wait for this holiday to be over so I can be with him again.

I really miss those times where we lie in bed to watch drama, and I'll always be the first one to fall asleep. I miss waking up beside him, knowing he's always there to give me a hug. I miss cooking for him and watching him play PS or watching foxtel together. I miss going to the movies with him and walking home together. I miss his nonsense and jokes.

I miss him...