Fats are upsetting

I've just returned from my trip to KL. It was nice to see KC, it made me really happy.

BUT...

Meeting his parents wasn't that good.
I wasn't me.
I had no idea why I was so nervous.
I was like a quiet timid mouse.
And the worst thing is, my friends outshine me.
Even KC thinks so.

I'm really UPSET.

I think it's because I'm older than him, and I'm afraid that his parents would mind. Also because I'm fat.

My FATS are really making me lose confidence in myself. I'm not the confident sexy woman that I used to be anymore. My hair isn't that nice and my complexion isn't that good either.

I feel so LOUSY.

I need to get that control back in my life. I want to feel confident again.

My first step: Lose 10kgs.

Once I have all these excess baggage off me, I'll be the old me. Full of confidence and worthy enough to love my man.

It really hurt when KC said I looked fatter than I was when he last saw me.

It's as if he dug my heart out and stabbed it with a knife.

I'm going to take control. From now. From this moment.