Fats are upsetting

I've just returned from my trip to KL. It was nice to see KC, it made me really happy.

BUT...

Meeting his parents wasn't that good.
I wasn't me.
I had no idea why I was so nervous.
I was like a quiet timid mouse.
And the worst thing is, my friends outshine me.
Even KC thinks so.

I'm really UPSET.

I think it's because I'm older than him, and I'm afraid that his parents would mind. Also because I'm fat.

My FATS are really making me lose confidence in myself. I'm not the confident sexy woman that I used to be anymore. My hair isn't that nice and my complexion isn't that good either.

I feel so LOUSY.

I need to get that control back in my life. I want to feel confident again.

My first step: Lose 10kgs.

Once I have all these excess baggage off me, I'll be the old me. Full of confidence and worthy enough to love my man.

It really hurt when KC said I looked fatter than I was when he last saw me.

It's as if he dug my heart out and stabbed it with a knife.

I'm going to take control. From now. From this moment.

Happy yet upset

KC just got his reply from uni saying that he got into the honours programme. I'm really happy for him, but I'm still hanging by the thread. I don't even know if my application for my double degree has been approved, and the worst thing is that the uni is already closed for the christmas holidays and they will only re-open in January.

If I can't do accounting means I have to wait for 6 months and enrol for semester 2 instead. That means 6 more months without KC. I just feel really upset now.

I'm gonna go cry now.

Hopefully the next time I login it will be with good news.

Dead Tired

My maid has gone back home to Indo for a break, and I have to be the replacement maid for the next two and a half weeks.

TOTALLY SUCKS!

I really don't mind doing the chores and cooking for so many people even though its tiring. But I just wish that I could get some appreciation for what I am doing. At least my dad, bro and aunt appreciate what I do.

MY MUM TOTALLY DOES NOT!

She has to complain about everything single thing. Why I didn't cook 2 vegetables instead of one. The "tao suan" was overcooked.

For crying out loud, I'm already so tired doing the laundry, and having to stand on my already ACHING legs to prepare food is not a very enjoyable thing to do. And all she can so is scold and complain. She left me no choice but to just shout back at her.

I was suppose to be happy, cos' my new ovens came and I can start baking again. But NO! I'm upset and tired, and it doesn't help that KC is not around. I really miss him. At least he doesn't complain about what I cook. In fact, he will still praise my cooking even though I know it wasn't nice.

OK. Enough upsetting stuff. Let me talk about my ovens.
Dad bought me new ovens for Christmas. Both from Miele, a steam oven and a conventional oven. These new ovens are really quite cool. They have computers and sensors in them, so those who don't know how to cook can use it with no difficulty. They look good as well with all the modern finishes.

Think I'll make dad a banana cake soon. He's been thinking about it for a real long time.

Lonely in SG

I've been back in SG for almost 2 weeks and I really miss KC alot.

It has come to a point where I can't help but IMAGINE of stupid things and having bad dreams of arguments and breakups. I really can't wait for this holiday to be over so I can be with him again.

I really miss those times where we lie in bed to watch drama, and I'll always be the first one to fall asleep. I miss waking up beside him, knowing he's always there to give me a hug. I miss cooking for him and watching him play PS or watching foxtel together. I miss going to the movies with him and walking home together. I miss his nonsense and jokes.

I miss him...

Summer is here!

Exams are finally over! Time to enjoy the holidays!

Going back to SG soon, feeling excited yet a little sad to leave. Its starting to get real hot over here. Suddenly there's lots of houseflies that were hibernating during winter and now its nice and warm they can't wait to say hi to us humans. And they do so by flying into our faces. WTH!!! Everyone walking along the streets have their hands flinging infront of their faces (even kids in prams!). But summer fruits sure are nice. Suddenly the market became so colourful! Lots of cherries, strawberries, HUGE watermelons and bananas! Really delicious!

Anyways, I'm really going to miss KC when I go back to SG, but its something that I have to live with and learn to adapt. I knew from the start that one day we will have to be apart for awhile, I take this as a kind of test for the both of us. I still believe in true love that will withstand time and space.

I really hope this is the one.

Was talking to my mum on MSN earlier on today, she said my dad misses me alot. So yea, I really want to spend some quality time with my parents. I've really made them worried and upset before, and its time I play my role as a good daughter and make them happy this summer.

Time to spread the love!

Countdown!

Its that time of the year AGAIN! The dreaded EXAMS.

Well this semester's timing is much better than the last one I must say. The previous exams were dragged over too long a period. This time its much nicely spaced out. 5,7,9 and 12 Nov. Not too far apart, this way I can stay more focused. Good thing the first paper isn't in Oct so I still have some time to study. Poor KC on the other hand has his first paper on the 25 Oct, but he'll be fine. He somehow always manges to do well.

Just can't wait for exams to be over so we can take a real long break. Heading back to Singapore on 22 Nov. KC should be going back to KL around that time. We should be visiting each other during the 3-month break. So fun! Can't wait!!

Oh yea, Faith came over in the beginning of the week. Had fun catching up and all. She's like my radio from Singapore updating me with everything I need to know. The next time we catch up should be when I go back, then we'll have our bitching session with the rest of the babes. :P

Till then, for those studying, good luck and study hard!!

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